Rant

WHAT IS WITH MEN????

There are only two men I can trust, and not want to strangle. Levi, and my son!

For some reason or another all of my exes got under my skin today.

First: Soon to be Ex Husband ~ almost 30 years old, and got a call from his father that his parents are splitting up. This has emotionally crippled him, and so he could not take his children tonight as scheduled! I don't want to sound like the cold hearted bitch that I know I really am, but, I have known these people since I was a teenager, and they have never been happy, and always spoke of their eventual separation, and or divorce. Everyone that knows them has just been waiting for it to happen. Their son, has known it since he could remember. So now why the "My mommy and Daddy are splitting up, oh poor me"?

Second: Father of my youngest ~ First he comes online and starts bitching to me about his Ex Wife. Honestly I couldn't care, until... He  brings my daughter into it. His Ex Wife wasn't happy with him for visiting our three year old when he doesn't visit their daughter enough. First of all, he visits his other daughters quite often, and talks to them very often. He only sees our little girl ONCE A DAMN YEAR!  Second, HE HAS NEVER PAID ME A DIME IN CHILD SUPPORT! I can't even get food stamps without going after him for child support, which I have tried to do, but I have no information to go on! He only gives his brothers address, where, no he does not live. I don't have his SS# and, he doesn't have a license, and works under the table! She on the other hand lives in Massachusetts, where they give you all you need. She has food stamps, affordable housing, Mass health, ALL OF IT! She is going to bitch that my kid got her once yearly visit!?

Then he tells me that he is going to try to get a transfer to the area so he can drop in and say hi, and visit our daughter. I am using the term our, only for descriptive purposes. She is MY daughter. I have raised her, I have taken care of her 365 days a year! All he has done is donated sperm, and abandoned her. So, no, she isn't his daughter in anything but name. SHE IS MINE!

Third: The Goomba ~ He is still not talking to me over stupid shit that has nothing to do with him. I filled out one of those chain notes on facebook, you know the ones, they ask you questions, and you delete the former persons answer and fill in your own. Well, it was about relationships. I filled it out honestly. He read it and it hurt his feelings, so now he refuses to talk to me. We were getting along fine until then. But, he  feels the need to act like I personally attacked him. If that makes him feel better, playing the victim in us not working out, so be it. Also, He is leaving the state. I found out tonight from Levi. The Goomba talked about this a little before he stopped talking to me, and was angry that I wasn't begging him to stay. Why should I? We aren't together anymore. We don't have anything tieing us to each other now that we are apart. So now that I know he is going, and just needs to come up with the money for a flight out there, To be honest, I feel relieved.

I believe we were completely toxic for each other in just about every way. Yet, always drawn to each other. In my opinion, the further away he is the safer I am, from repeating a toxic mistake.

So, after, and during all of this, I was talking to Levi, in one of our late night/early morning ritualistic chats. I told him I need a boy toy. One that's only purpose is to make me feel good. To much to ask for, I think not.

......... So I Am Taking Resumes.......

Requirements: Must be working, Must be in somewhat decent shape, Must not want marriage or anything like marriage, Must be taller than me by at least 4 inches, Must be okay being referred to by Boy Toy and not by name.

Email all resumes to me, and I will take them into consideration ;)