I fear, that once again I am lost. Lost again within myself, searching for where I have gone, trying to find again the me I belong to.
How foolish of me to think that for the first time in my existence I had finally found my true self. Can a person ever really find themselves and feel complete?
I have come to a point where I can't trust myself anymore. Like I tore the band-aid off too soon. I now flinch at the thought of doing so again..
How can I trust my self, and my instincts when I am clearly always fooling myself?
Is contentment, and happiness just an illusion, did it ever really exist to begin with? If it did exist, why couldn't I hold on to it?
Am I even worthy of feeling that bliss again? I never felt I deserved anything good, so again, I was fooling myself in my allowance of happiness.
