Dazed

Over all in general, I am okay.

I have certain things in my every day life that bother me. 

I need a distraction. Something I can do, on my own, that is just for me.

I need my own little corner in my own little world, where I can be whatever I want to be.

I don't have that, while others do, and I think it is getting to me.

I need an outlet, or I fear I will implode some days.

I need a friend.

I need someone who not only will listen to me, but that wants to listen to me, and can validate my feelings so I don't feel like a bitch all the time.

It would be nice to have a friend in this place.

I feel as though I am in permanent solitude.

I am dazed thinking that this is what my like will be for the rest of it. I came here of my own free will, but feel like I do not belong, and there is no place for me.

I feel as though I am just a freeze dried replacement of someone that once occupied this space.  Living anothers life.

I don't like this feeling but it is my reality. Do I dwell, or deal?

Peace and love,

B