There are some things in life that can change you course, your direction, maybe even your purpose.
Sometimes you don't see it coming, other times you know that one decision will change your life forever.
It can be big, or small. Even something that seems small at the time could end up being the biggest decision of your entire life.
Not knowing the outcome is a very scary thing.
Sometimes, when making decisions that we know will change our destiny and affect every day for the rest of our lives we look for reassurance. It isn't always given out freely, and even when we seek it, there is no guarantee that it will be what we had hoped for.
When facing the uncertainty of the future you always hope for the best, you hope that this will turn out to be your dream come true. Unfortunately it sometimes turns out to be your worst nightmare.
I am in no way giving out advice here, for I am more uncertain now of the future, of my destiny, of my happiness than ever before.
A decision that is not mine alone has to be made.
It will affect the lives of multiple people, whatever is decided.
The possible outcome terrifies me like no other decision of my life, and I have had to make some drastic ones.
The fact that this decision is almost completely in anothers hands scares the shit out of me. I have very little control over this. It is out of my control until their decision is made, and only then can I make my move. A drastic game of chess.
Until next time,
Peace and Love,
B
