Am I A Cat

Sometimes in life, there are things utterly out of your control. 

I know that many say that you yourself control your own destiny, and that you control your own life. 

Well sometimes life throws us curve balls, that we could never have seen coming, and that we could not have stopped in any way. 

Sometimes these circumstances are seen coming a mile away, and you try with all of your might to see control which way they will hit, but the ball is in someone else's court, not your own, and you can do nothing but wait and see. 

Maybe it will be tomorrow, maybe it will be in a year. You cannot control what this does to your life, just wait and see the outcome. 

That is what is currently going on in my life, in many aspects, and I have to be honest and tell you that the curiosity of what will be feels like a death. 

So, hence the title of this post, am I the cat?

Will my curiosity be my end?

Till next time, 

Peace and Love,

B

Purple Haze

I feel sometimes as if I am walking through life in a haze.

I always eventually see the light in the situation, sadly though, I find the light only comes much too long after the situation.

I look back at different periods of my life and see how, if I was then, who I am now, things would be so different now.

I wish right now that my future self from 10 years from now could come visit me and say "B, do not do x, y, and z, but whatever you do, make sure you do a, b and c, oh, and by the way, that thing your worried about, stop, it all turns out great!"

I wish I could, in my current state, go back in time to the me from 10 years ago. I would give her so much advice! I would change my life so drastically .

I do believe that life takes you where you need to go, and you suffer so that you can learn. There are however some things that I know that I could skip over, and still be the me that I am, and know what I know.

Who knows what the future holds. Maybe though, if my recent dreams hold true, the future will be magical!

Peace and Love,
B